Those three is what beliefs I think I’ve got on this journey. What’s on my mind a lot now is “What is it that I really want?”
To be the best I can be
To teach my kids and help them become the best they want to be.
So that they can reach their potential.
Then they’ll be happy and live a good life.
What does that mean to you?
That would make me feel good/happy. So you want to be happy?
Yes, I think so.
Isn’t there another way to be happy? Can’t you be happy now?
… Yes, I can probably and I think I’m happy. But I still want to be the best that I can be.
Why? Does it matter if I’m happy on the way? Can I be?
Is it the truth or is it just rationalizations?
Does it matter if it’s rationalizations?
That’s the conversation I have all the time in my head. I want to grow as a person. I don’t wanna be the person I am today when I die. It’s not that I would be unhappy if I die today either. I don’t know how to explain it.